Life must be better than this

Hi and Hello everyone. I hope there is still real human reading my blog. I'm sorry I no longer have time to devote myself to this blog, but I promise this is not good bye. I'm still trying to find time to start blogging again.

I'm feeling slightly a little emo today and ... I've been wanting to write this for the longest time.

Looking back at my personal photos, I realize now I look so haggered, tired and old. I mean I can be very bubbly, funny and cheerful at work but deep down inside of me I felt really empty.



True enough people would say when you work, you get to buy anything you want without having to ask money from anyone. I like this part of the freedom and having no commitment, I would say my pay has allowed me to shop happily.



But put aside all that luxurious lifestyle, (it's luxurious for me because before I started working I didn't spent so much on well, say for instance a piece of tshirt?) i pretty much felt like my life is meaningless.

I go to work, come back and sleep. This routine has been repeating for the past 6 months!

Can someone tell me how to make my life more ka-rer-ful?

Non Food

Anecdote of the week :

- I fainted outside a restaurant after suffering from a bad gastric, and went for a shisha dinner. champion they say :P I told my friend to open the car door for me but before he could open, I fainted. The restaurant staff helped and massaged my head while my colleagues panicked (told by them when i sedarkan diri. lol) I woke up minutes later and first thing I asked was.. " what happen?" and my colleagues started to shout " Are you ok or not!! oi!! " It was a funny but very scary moment. Imagine if I passed out and never wake up. =s

- I cried for the third day now because my colleague resigned. I know it's lame, very lame - especially when I haven't cried for 8 months!! But it so happen that while I'm having one of the stress-est job that could really dry your brain juice up, I have a bunch of great friends. and by friends I meant genuine one. Not the kind who back stabs you and all the politics shit.

We go for trainings by batch for a month before we really started working hands on, all of us became very, very close. and this colleague who resigned is the one I'm the closest with. It felt like something is missing and for once I felt like I'm in an empty office. And I'm feeling this in a department (yes just one department!) that has 400 people ok! All of us actually cried (even the macho men!) when she left and this isn't something you usually see in office especially in a fast pace foreign organization! I'm still very much in an emo state btw. :(

Just let me end with something my colleague wrote on facebook :

"a stranger. it takes a stranger to make us realize that sometimes in real life you just cant change anything. no matter how hard you try. a stranger sometimes could make you feel so touched and lose control completely. a stranger that could make everything in the world feel less a bad place to live in. i guess a stranger can really bring colours in our life. a stranger."

Kuching, yet again!

Wow, I always feel like time flies every time I blog. How did time passed? It's already almost the middle of the year!

The past one month I've been working extra hours just to earn slightly higher pay. Ok lah, not slightly but an amount that would made a difference. Haha. At some point I was working Monday to Sunday and then Monday again! For the past two days, I was actually working 12 hours a day.

I don't know what I was chasing but the feeling of making myself feel extra tired is quite addictive. It's hard to explain but it's like drugs. haha. I'm also glad to announce that my job is starting to blend in with my life that working everyday without a break feels like something normal to me. It has become a routine and every morning I wake up feeling like I need to go to work asap! It's a good sign right? haha.

Anyway, I'll be on a week break and I'm flying back to Kuching tomorrow after work! I'll have to really rush tho. My flight's at 8.45pm! Just pray that nothing goes wrong with the KLIA transit or the LRT. hehe.

Till then, much love from me.

p/s : any of my readers (i trust I still have a few :S ) is a member of the Original Bootcamp?

Loves!

Yay, after a much devastating, demotivating and all the tings last week, I'm flying back to my hometown for the weekends again!


Till then, take care for the long weekends and play safe :D

P/s : the picture above is one of the most beautiful sunset I witnessed on the plane. It's taken approximately 3000 ft above a beach. So pretty it touched my heart when I saw the sun set!

*Happy*

I am going back to Kuching later! omgee :DD

I'll be heading straight to the airport after work! So excited. I just packed!



I'm hoping the workload I have is lesser tomorrow so me and my friend can go off to KLIA earlier and take the bus instead of the train. Cheaper by RM 20 :P



Will only be back for the weekends tho' but well, should be enough to rejuvenate. I miss Kuching so much.

p/s : Don't remind me that I'm working on Monday. bleks.

Loves. :D

Appeared on AirAsia 360 Magazine

I'm back from Bintulu! Sadly and Unfortunately. To be really honest, I miss the place. How soothing and calm it was as compared to the hustle bustle life of KL. But that'll be a story another day cause' I'm hitting the sack soon.

Anyway, as I mentioned in the previous post, I took the first flight out from KL to Bintulu and was really sleepy! Having to sleep only two hours, I was trying my level best to wait for the take off, a part of flying that I really love! So I flick through the magazine to stay awake. The first thing I saw when I open the mag (I have a habit of reading from the middle) was my name! haha

I submitted my comment via e-mail (got to know through fb) and yes, mine is featured! Even though they accidentally posted another person's picture, I'm still quite contented! hehe *syoks*

I'll blog about Bintulu when I have time.

P/s : It's such a good day today :)

East Coast

After two months of entering the workforce, I'm finally going for a well deserving break!I'll be leaving for Bintulu, a part of Sarawak that i've never been despite being hailed from the state.



To be really honest, I'm really tired and I just packed 5 mins ago and my cabbie guy will be here in 30 mins! But i'm very much looking forward to be in the airport, a place where I find my peace.

I'll be back tomorrow afternoon tho. Yes, cause I'm working on Monday. :s

The beginning of the year of rabbit

Happy Chinese New Year everyone yawww!

wow, it's been exactly a month since I last blogged. For the uninformed, I've just joined the workforce early this year and I guess the whole month of me being idle was the fact that my body is adjusting to a new body clock. I would say my body is pretty much adjusted to it now so i'll try to blog more often after this. I've got so much food posts to share! and, I even got a new semi-pro cam that takes f-awesome pictures!



I'm actually (and sadly) in KL for the Lunar celebration because it would be too costly for me to go back just for the weekends. I'm still in classroom training now so I'm not entitled to any leave other than the public holidays. Won't complaint about it though. I've already been blessed with a job so yeah, when you have one thing, you sacrifice another.

It's very different celebrating CNY in KL- or any festival for that matter because I somehow felt like the feeling would never reached it's climax (using a sex-language always helps in describing anything ;p) But after being away from my parents for more than a month, it didn't really matter where I was celebrating it. What matters most was that, I was with my parents. Yes, I know it's uncool to say this, but i'm really close to my parents. :)



I would say it's quite a relaxing CNY for me since my apartment here is only a quarter size of my Kuching house so the cleanings were very brief. The fact that I was also working full day on the eve of CNY also made me escaped from the reunion preparation. hehe. Our reunion dinner were very late though, cause my parents arrived from Kuching around 5pm and after my sis picked me up from work and all, we only reached home - and started preparing at 7.3op.m.



We went to Genting early this morning and met up with my extended maternal family there. I haven't been there for years! It was cold and misty outside but when you're inside the buildings it was rather hot because of the crowd. I skipped the theme park since the queue was crazy and spent the whole afternoon in casino and was winning quite a bit of money until I became greedy and lose all of my winning money. But it was all good and fun.



We ended the trip with a Starbucks session. Ah, it's good to be able to pay for your family. Satisfaction maksima! hahaha.

Anyway, Gong Hei Fatt Choy to all my readers that has been loyal with me! May the year of rabbit bring us all pools of moolah!

Today I Turn 23.

Yes, it's my birthday today! ... and I'm doing a birthday meme on my blog to celebrate it! Haha. Well, I thought this will be a great way to share with you a little of my emotional side - or the me, when I'm not a glutton. :P This is also possibly the longest non-food related post I've ever written! :D

1. Was being 22 good for you?
I would say it's a balance of good and bad. I completed a number of things. I graduated, I fulfilled one of my wish of being in a flight simulator, I effortlessly(no diet shit) lose 10 kg, discovered the goodness of shisha (God sent! lol) and I met a guy that left a huge impact in my life.

The bad part? Screwing up an interview, met a bitchy boss, put on 2kg after losing 10 kg (haha!) and I bid goodbye to the same guy that impacted me.

2. What was your favorite moment when you were 22?
It was my four months in Penang. I can still recall how happy I was. Not that I don't love Kuching (I do, very much!) but Penang gave me a feeling i couldn't explain in words. I did not live lavishly - just a medium sized apartment without air condition, no car and was constantly short of cash. But for once, I felt my mind and soul were entirely at ease. It was as though as I have lived in Penang my whole life.

3. What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Bidding goodbye to a friend I really, really care. It was bitter but somewhat a relieve because it was at a point where the only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving (Elizabeth Gilbert, 2006). However, that doesn't mean I stopped to care. I still care, I always have and I always will.

4. What are your plans now that you are 23?
Drawing a clearer career path for myself, play less safe and living my life to the fullest!

5. What date will remain etched in your memory?
19 October. It was when I realized sometimes solutions aren't so simple. Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

6. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Completing my degree.

7. What was your biggest failure?
Embarrassingly screwing up an interview with Malaysia's top 10 company. (based on year 2010's list) I was sleepless for three nights prior to the interview (had other commitments) and by the time I reached the office I was breathless, tired and brain dead.

8. Did you suffer any illness or injury?
I did! I got stung by a huge ant while working for a trade fair. My feet was swollen to two size for about a week and it was crazy itchy. I don't think I actually fell ill though. The funny thing was during the first month of my internship, I was really depressed. I hated the job and I wanted to be sick so I could escape. I walloped all sorts of "heaty food" including this really yucky thick peanut cream but still never got sick!

9. What was the best thing you bought?
There were a few : Lois Jeans, Hush Puppies Slack and Roxy Leather Belt.

10. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
My ex director! haha! She totally redefine the meaning of wicked.

11. Where did most of your money go?
My gastronomic food adventures and clothes. P/s : I'm 10 kg fatter when pictured side ways. Lol.

12. What did you get really really really excited about?
Meeting TL* , having him picked me up from the airport and spending time with him. Of course this does not mean when it happened, it was as good as the excitement was. :p

13. What songs will always remind you were 22 years old once?
Just A Dream (Nelly), Teriffied (Katherine McPhee), Teenage Dream (Katy Perry), This Kiss (Faithhill) and this old Malay song, Isabella (Amy Search).

14. Compared to when you were 22, were you :
a) Fatter or thinner? Thinner! :D

b) Happier or sadder? I would say, still the same.

c) Richer or poorer? Poorer. Haha

15. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Socializing.

16. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Thinking too much and taking unnecessary precautions. Playing safe is not exactly the answer to everything. This bad habit of mine made me lose a lot of things that should have been mine easily.

17. How will you be spending Christmas?
I've always believed that Christmas is reserved for family. So yes, like always I will be spending my Christmas in Kuching with my family.

18. Did you fall in love when you were 22?

*** This is quite lengthy but this is a part I owe me. I promised myself once I am fully recovered, this will be on my blog. I initially planned to dedicate a whole single post for it but decided not to as a lot of details will be too personal but here's a brief one.

Back to the question: Yes, I almost fell in love. He's extremely handsome, a pilot to be, romantic at heart and has a killer smile. However! He had nothing I would look for in a guy and was not someone I would actually date. You see, I'm a realist. Whenever I am with someone who I don't foresee a future, I waste my time no more. But with him, it was very different. It was almost similar to how I first fell in love eight years ago and I didn't wanna stop.

It could be that I was too engrossed in the fairytale he gave but everything felt so damn right! No, we didn't do anything out of the ordinary or too exciting. It was as simple as giving him a morning call or just watching him falling asleep on my lap. As cliche as this may sound, he made me feel like the whole world stopped spinning. It was like a dream - one that I don't wanna wake up.

Unfortunately, the clock ruled us. He was three years my junior and while age was never a question for me, I felt like the gap was too huge and I was already a stage ahead in life. For him, he was at a position where he had two roads diverged in the yellow woods and could not travel both. We finally decided that it's a better choice for him to walk the other path and parted ways. It was mutual. No knifes, No fights, No blood. Just a lot of tears when we finally hugged and kissed goodbye.

While I did not feel very strongly for him, it stung more than I thought it would be. Maybe because it was unlike any other goodbyes, this particular one has nothing wrong at all. We were two friends happen to have feelings for each other at the wrong time. It has been more than a month. I have since fallen out of the love that I almost fell and him walking far along the road chosen. A huge part of me felt like I was the blame of to why we never progressed more than friends. I was too slow, I was too scared. I let it slip, and I saw it slipped.

Of course, I would be in denial if I said I didn't miss him. I do. I miss his company, I miss his voice, I miss our morning breakfast with his mother and how his mother would tell me stories about him, I miss his 8 a.m morning messages, I miss his smile and I miss the butterflies he gave. But it doesn't mean anything anymore. I have moved on and this is a story of yesterday! :)

19. How many one night stands?
If zero is a number than zero it is. One Night Stand is not my kind of thing. (I do many nights! :P )This kinda reminds me of something : 22 is the age where I have many people telling me I will be a good wife! Lol

20. What was your favourite TV show?

I'm a TV Buff! The Big Bang Theory, The Bachelor, The Bachelorette, Gossip Girls, The Amazing Race Asia, The Biggest Loser and for a while, Glee.

21. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate when you were 22?
Nah.. I might not like a person but it never get to a point where I hate them.

22. What was/were the best books you read when you were 22?

I really like Elizabeth Gilbert's Eat, Pray, Love and I find Losing My Virginity by Richard Branson to be extremely inspiring. My real favorite is this book by a local writer. It was a great hindsight of what we do not see as a passenger on board.

23. What did you want and get?
A chronograph watch with black leather strap.

Sorry lah, I blurred the car logo. I drive lousy car ma :P

24. What did you want and not get?
Sony NEX-5!

25. What was the best gift you received when you were 22?
It was this wing pilots get when they completed their first solo flight. Priceless.

26. What did you do on your 22nd Birthday?
I celebrated it with some close friends in Hilton. My all time favorite coffee place.

27. What one thing would have made your year more satisfying?
Getting my dream job!

28. How would you describe your personal fashion concept when you were 22?
Slightly better. Haha. I think towards the middle of the year, I bought a lot of new clothes cause I no longer fit into my old clothes.

29. Who did you miss the most when you were 22?
I think it was when I was still (friends) with TL*. It was insane! I would wake up, heart pumping as fast as a Ferrari car on the track missing him like crazy. I loved waking up to his bed voice. Having said this, please note the past tense. :)

30. Did you treat somebody badly while you were 22?
I would say I didn't but who am I to judge myself? So whoever I did mistreat, I'm sorry.

31. Did somebody treat you badly when you were 22?
Yes, my ex boss. But thanks to her, I had an eye opening view of how working life is.

32. A valuable life lesson you learned when you were 22.
That when you truly care for someone, just seeing them happy means more than anything in the world - even when you're not physically there with them. :)

Yesterday was the last day of me being 22. I'm 23 today and I look forward to exploring and discovering many more great things ahead for the next 365 days. :D

AirAsia Mobile Check-In

Since the previous post I wrote on AirAsia's Web Check in turns out to be one of the post that generates the most traffic to my site, I decided to do the same pictorial guide for the mobile check in for Android phones.

Either I do it wrongly but it works like Symbian phones - you still have to go to mobile.airasia.com via your browser first.



Step 1 - Once in the web, click mobile check-in.

Step 2 - Key in your booking number and your departure airport.

Step 3 - Then, select the guests you would like to check in.



Step 4 - This is the last step! Enter your e-mail and mobile phone number to receive the bar code.

Unfortunately, I did not receive the barcode sent to my phone. It was e-mailed to me though.

However when I reached the airport, there were no bar code scanners. According to the website, airports that does not have the scanner, passengers who had check in through their mobile can go directly to the counter to have it scanned and boarding pass printed. (Before anyone starts to think that Kuching's airport is on the trees and does not have the electricity to have a bar code scanner, here's a picture of our on-the-tree airport *sarcasm*)

I queued at the normal check-in counter and was told to go to another counter - which was quite a long queue. Ironically, it was also the queue for the web check-in passengers to have their printed boarding pass verified. The counter check-in queue actually has almost nil passengers.

All in all, it took me almost 20 minutes before I finally got my boarding pass. Taken into consideration that there were actually no one at the queue for counter check in, that's quite long! (and a tad frustrating when you're expecting it to be quick?)

My say on the mobile check-in? I personally think that while it's easier than any other check-in methods - and is supposedly to be faster, I didn't feel like it did serve its purpose. But then again, it might be because the bar code scanner so happen to be missing in action. Haha. I'll do another write up when I fly again. Might be next week! :D

Yet, another chapter closed

Wow, I have so much to write, I don't know where to start! I usually try to stray away from being too personal in my blog, but i'll make an exception for today, kay?



Four months ago, I embark into what I call a "new adventure". I chose to do my internship in Penang, a city I have visited endless times but never once based at. A lot of people question my decision as to why I would want to be away from home just for an attachment. My answer is simple. I want obstacles! Doing it at home just make me less independent - a trait I forbid myself to instill.



I've grown to love Penang so much (as I always had) that packing everything and come back home was a little bitter. It wasn't the initial plan but after having seen so much drama during my internship, I decided I wasn't ready to work just yet. All I need is a break, and some time to think through what's in store for me in the future.



The first week of my homecoming totally flew by. It felt like it was yesterday I was counting hours (was hundreds of hours then!) till I am back and next thing I know, I was already waving goodbye to Ben from KFC in the airport and him walking to the terminal.



It's already been ten days since I'm back and only today I felt like I am starting to regain my consciousness and ..stepping on the ground.

I still have a very important assignment to rush, and i'm still trying to find the mood to do it!



p/s : Thanks for the e-mails and comments complimenting the blog! Appreciate it much and do keep it coming! I'll be back once I finish my practical report! :D

Benny :)

Since the ice cream you had just now was not satisfying, here's another one to make up for it. Doesn't exactly look very tempting, but this is the only photo with ice cream that I never posted on my blog!



Congrats on doing well for your LOFT. Told you, you''re awesome!

xoxo
Mel

Transition

Sorry for the lack of updates ( and improper updates!). Been very busy preparing for my internship, moving to a new place and all.



I arrived Penang two days ago and had finally settled down with all the necessities. Haven't buy the pots and pans to cook though. ;p




Never thought I would say this, but i'm kinda lonely here. Lol. Well, well, true they say the grass is greener in the west. But the sky is blue-er in the east. And blue skies make me happy!



I miss homeeee. Grr.

Nuffnang Payout

Kaching Kaching! :P



It's slightly lesser than the previous payout, but should be enough to fund my yum cha sessions this holiday. :)